Aug 29, 2013

Worn Out

Warning: Lot's of whining follows...

Some folks may remember me telling you about my problems with concentration and focus following the Layoffs at my company.  Well, they have announced another round of layoffs coming in October.  This will be huge, 7% of the company to the tune of around 4000 people!  I have serious doubts to being able to survive this.

After the last round of layoffs hit, I found myself kind of rocked to the core.  Since then, I haven't been able to sleep well, with lot's of anxiety and worry.  I wind up waking up around 3-4 each morning and toss and turn until I wind up having to get up and throw up. 

On the plus side, I am down 15 pounds now!  I should go on TV and have my own infomercial about weight loss through stress...

I went to a couple of different doctors, getting a neuro workup, some heavy duty testing, and it appears to be one of two things.  Mild Cognitive Impairment or Depression brought on by stress.

So I am going to get referred to a psychiatrist for help and if that works then great.  If it doesn't, it means MCI, and that is a precursor to Alzheimer's.  That isn't so good.

Lot's of well meaning friends have told me not to worry about things I can't control, and different sayings all along those same lines.  But I am just not wired that way.  I have worried my entire life.  And I worry a lot now that I am the sole bread winner and need to have good benefits for Skyler.  So there is a ton of pressure going on here.

Skyler had his first seizure in a long time last night, we had a power outage and that always freaks him out.  But this time it seems to have scared him into a full blown grand mal type of seizure.  We were able to control it with the Diastat drug, which is valium in the butt for lack of a better description.  So he is staying home today from his day program and resting.

I am just plain worn out these days, and wondering if I am ever going to be able to sleep, and catch a break.

Sorry to sound so pathetic...

Aug 23, 2013

True Colors A Cappella

The A Cappella geek in me loves this, even though it can be debated this isn't so much a cappella as choral performance.

In any case, this group is very tight, which is hard with so many voices.  I used to be in a couple of groups, one large like this, and another smaller.  It was a wonderful experience!


Aug 12, 2013

Night Landing

When I was in the Navy, I knew quite a few pilots and they all had the same story.  Night landings on the carrier were brutal.  As a matter of fact, during Viet Nam, a test was run with several pilots wired up to monitor their vitals during missions.  The results were interesting to say the least.  These guys were more calm while they were trying to out maneuver soviet anti-air missiles tracking them than they were with just getting their bird back on the deck.

Aug 5, 2013

It's Hell To Get Old!

Two medical students were walking along the street when they saw an old man
Walking with his legs spread apart. He was stiff-legged and walking slowly.

One student said to his friend:
"I'm sure that poor old man has Peltry Syndrome.
Those people walk just like that."

The other student says:
"No, I don't think so. The old man surely has Zovitzki Syndrome.
He walks slowly and his legs are apart, just as we learned in class."

Since they couldn't agree they decided to ask the old man. They approached him
And one of the students said to him,
"We're medical students and couldn't help
But notice the way you walk, but we couldn't agree on the syndrome you might have.
Could you tell us what it is?"

The old man said,
"I'll tell you, but first you tell me what you two fine medical students think."

The first student said, "I think it's Peltry Syndrome."

                  The old man said, "You thought - but you are wrong."

The other student said, "I think you have Zovitzki Syndrome."

The old man said, "You thought - but you are wrong."

So they asked him, "Well, old timer, what do you have?"

The old man said,
"I thought it was GAS - but I was wrong, too!"