Random thoughts from a well-medicated brain

I haven't done any serious posts in quite sometime now.  Mostly because I have been in a serious rut, and just haven't felt it.  But I think the main reason has been the low level (and sometimes high level) of pain that I have been in.  Those of you who know me on Facebook know that I have been having a lot of troubles with my back lately.  The pain has been intense and I have not been able to help take care of Skyler.  This next Thursday the 27th I will be getting a series of 4 shots into the L4-L5 and L5-S1 vertebra to see if that can give me any relief.  I certainly hope it does, because I can't live my life on muscle relaxers and narcotic pain killers.

Let me rephrase that...

I would love to live my life on narcotic pain killers.  But I can't, because on occasion I need to think and shit like that...

 

For those of you into the mechanics of the back, the red arrow shows the lack of a disk between L4-L5, and the two blue arrows show the disks that are bulged out.

So what else is going on besides back stuff?  Well, Kathy has been having to pick up the slack from me not being able to lift Skyler.  She has been nice about it but her patience is wearing thin.  She wants her helper back so she can do the things she likes to do.  What didn't go over big was Mr Pain killer brain here reminding her that I could be working in an office and gone all day, so she is still lucky to have my help.

Seems she doesn't see things that way... Oh well, my bad.  Every time I open my mouth, I just dig further down...

We recently spent 4500 bucks to get a new transmission put into my car, the Volvo wagon.  Well guess what just rolled to the side of the road with the check engine light on?  Yep, more problems now.  Car place is closed until after Christmas, so yay us.

On the work front, our small business team has just transitioned all of the work to a team in China.  All of the engineers, testers, project management folks are working on new stuff.  They left us writers with the old team, and said there will be plenty of opportunities coming along.  Thanks very much, got any lube while you bend me over the desk?

I am trying to stay positive but that doesn't seem to be working out for me.  All the crap seems to be hitting at once, and when I am in a whole lot of pain, I don't deal with it well.  I have often said I don't understand how people can commit suicide.  I have never thought it could get that bad.  Now don't worry, I am not going to off myself, but I can honestly say that I can see why now.  I can understand how that might seem like an alternative.

Happy holidays and ho-fucking-ho.